SO much has happened since the last time i blogged!!
First and foremost i gave birth to my now one month old baby boy!
Brayden Lane was born on my hubby's and my 2 year wedding anniversary! God gave us a beautiful gift this year and every year to come! Brayden is such an amazing baby! I love him more then anything in this world...
Well now down to the nitty gritty..
I feel as if i have lost pretty much all contact with someone very close to me. We used to know everything about each other and now i look at them and it's like i don't know them at all... it is so sad to me to feel as if i have lost them in this crazy world because i used to be able to go to them whenever i felt like but now its just like wow.. i dont know if i can or not because i just feel as if that connection isnt there anymore... now don't get me wrong they are still a very important part of my life and not a day goes by that i dont think and pray for this person its just not the same as it used to be.. and im not blaming them because i know that i haven't been the best person to come to with problems or anything really here lately i'm just sad.. sad that i wasn't the friend that i should have been and sad that it might never be the same way it used to be....i know that if i ever needed them they would be there for me and i for them its just hard to actually admit it and i think that all this time that is all i really needed to do. i need to be honest and try to fix things and not make them worse... i just don't know how to do it..
So for now i pray. I pray that God will help me to be a better friend and be a better person not only for my friends but for my son. I need to teach him that you treat others the way that you would like to be treated i was taught that my whole life growing up but i think somewhere i lost it and i needed to be reminded.. I want to teach my son that everyone is equal in this world and that no matter the situation you should always try to do the right thing and if you don't know what is the right thing then pray. Pray to God for the guidance that will lead you down the right path because with God leading the way you will never be lead wrong. I pray for my son to know that his father and i love him very much and that we will always try to do anything and everything in our power to give him the world and more. I need to teach him all of the things that i have forgotten and have found out the hard way.. I want him to be the best kind of person that he can be. I love him with all of my heart and i always will..shew ok now that i have cried til i can't hardly see to type this i think this is a good place to end for now.. thanks for reading :)
First and foremost i gave birth to my now one month old baby boy!
Brayden Lane was born on my hubby's and my 2 year wedding anniversary! God gave us a beautiful gift this year and every year to come! Brayden is such an amazing baby! I love him more then anything in this world...
Well now down to the nitty gritty..
I feel as if i have lost pretty much all contact with someone very close to me. We used to know everything about each other and now i look at them and it's like i don't know them at all... it is so sad to me to feel as if i have lost them in this crazy world because i used to be able to go to them whenever i felt like but now its just like wow.. i dont know if i can or not because i just feel as if that connection isnt there anymore... now don't get me wrong they are still a very important part of my life and not a day goes by that i dont think and pray for this person its just not the same as it used to be.. and im not blaming them because i know that i haven't been the best person to come to with problems or anything really here lately i'm just sad.. sad that i wasn't the friend that i should have been and sad that it might never be the same way it used to be....i know that if i ever needed them they would be there for me and i for them its just hard to actually admit it and i think that all this time that is all i really needed to do. i need to be honest and try to fix things and not make them worse... i just don't know how to do it..
So for now i pray. I pray that God will help me to be a better friend and be a better person not only for my friends but for my son. I need to teach him that you treat others the way that you would like to be treated i was taught that my whole life growing up but i think somewhere i lost it and i needed to be reminded.. I want to teach my son that everyone is equal in this world and that no matter the situation you should always try to do the right thing and if you don't know what is the right thing then pray. Pray to God for the guidance that will lead you down the right path because with God leading the way you will never be lead wrong. I pray for my son to know that his father and i love him very much and that we will always try to do anything and everything in our power to give him the world and more. I need to teach him all of the things that i have forgotten and have found out the hard way.. I want him to be the best kind of person that he can be. I love him with all of my heart and i always will..shew ok now that i have cried til i can't hardly see to type this i think this is a good place to end for now.. thanks for reading :)
