Time Flies!!

To start a picture of my baby on Halloween! I made his little punkin costume! :)



So here it is November....

I cannot believe how fast time really does go by. My baby boy is now 13 almost 14 months old. I will be having this baby boy in like 3 months! I feel like everything is just going by way to fast! Brayden's 1st birthday party was amazing! He is such an amazing little boy learning new things everyday.. like today he said drink! well its more like dink haha but its amazing all the words he learning to say.. before long we will be wishing he would shut up! haha But in reality time is only going to go by faster and faster.. Just gotta live life day to day and not get caught in all the hustle and bustle of the world. I just want to reach my one goal in life and that is to be the greatest Mom that i can be to my sweet baby boys.

This morning we went to church. Haven't been in a few weeks and I was really REALLY missing it! Today there was a song that was sung that said "He's right on time.." Talking about how everything is done on God's time. It is so wonderful to be reminded of this! I have been STRESSING out here recently because I would really love to have our own place and everything because it is hard having to live with other people even if it is my mom and dad. I just have been very upset and just wanting time to speed up and let it be next year already so that we can start looking at places and deciding on where we will be living.. Well this song just reinforced it into my brain that it is not up to me when things happen.. It's not in my power to know when God will answer prayers and how He will answer prayers. It is up to me to PRAY and THANK God everyday for all of the blessing he has given to me. Another song that was sung this morning goes 

"There's a roof up above me, I've a good place to sleep, There's food on my table and shoes on my feet. You gave me your love Lord and a fine family.. Thank you Lord for your blessings on me..." 

That is truly my favorite song and every now and then when i hear it just reminds me that I may not have everything I want or think that I need in this world but I do have God's love and a family that He has chosen for me and two very precious baby boys that have my whole heart! And of course my amazing husband who is just an inspiration to me. God's love is all I need everything else will work itself out! 

Needless to say today has been a glorious day and I am so THANKFUL!!! and so very blessed! Thank you Lord for your blessings on me!

Been a while...

Wow I realized just how long it has been since I updated my blog! I am very sorry for the long absence but of course life has taken over! So many things to update about!!!!

To start.... Brayden is now a 1 year old little boy! I cannot believe how fast time has gone by with him growing at an unbelievable rate! He is a walking, somewhat talking lil terror! HA! Well that is somewhat a joke... He is definitely getting his own personality and temper (sorry hubs he gets that from his momma!) But nonetheless he is an amazing little boy who loves to give sugar (kisses) and hugs (sometimes) and is just all around absolutely AMAZING! Haha I cannot say that enough! Being a mom is the most rewarding gift in life ever! And come February I will officially be a momma of two little boys!!

I am 21 weeks pregnant with our 2nd little boy! His name is Hank and if he is anything like his older brother we are in for some crazy times around here!!! He is due the 12th of Feb and I will turn 21 the the 11th! Haha If someone had told me that this is where I would be in this time of life i would have laughed and been like....OOOKKK... but now that I am here its like nothing else matters and i am absolutely LOVING my life!

We are staying with my parents as of now and it can be pretty tough but I am thankful that they are willing to help us out so much! I don't know where we would be without them! God has absolutely blessed me with such a perfect life for me!

Now let's see if I can update more often then I have been!

Ramblin' (wo)Man

So this is going to be pretty random since it's late and of course i'm sleep deprived and yet i can't sleep..isnt that lovely?? ugh so anyways my mind is in overdrive so i was just thinking about a few things..

When I think about words to describe myself i think of honest. Well really i think bluntly honest. I pretty much tell you what i think and when i think it and sometimes that isnt the best thing in the world but! i do it and i pretty much always have. I would much rather duke out a argument right then and there rather then it going on and on for days.. i find that highly annoying.. but oh well..i know not everyone is like me and i realize it.. but i just wish people would talk rather then think stuff and hold it against others instead of telling them the truth about what they think and how they are feeling.. but enough about that! :)

So my Bubby is 7 weeks old tomorrow.. WOW! It does not feel like its been almost 2 months.. UGH! haha i dont want time to go by so fast! But he is smiling all the time and starting to laugh and he is just an absolutely amazing baby. He of course has his little screaming fits and all that but for the most part he is just amazing. haha I tell hubs that he will say Mama first cause he is such a momma's boy already. Hubs can be trying to get him to smile and making faces at him and he just looks at him and as soon as i say something to him and smile at him he is smiling ear to ear haha! hubs loves seeing his smiles and his little laughs just as much as i do and he knows the reason is cause im with him more so its not a problem. I am SUCH a lucky woman to have such an amazing husband who actually likes spending time with his family and his baby most men give the baby up once they start crying but hubs sticks it out! i am so proud of him. he is an amzing daddy not that i had any doubts but it really is an amazing sight to see. :)

shew ok well now that im done rambling i think i will head to bed! finally feeling the drowsiness setting in.

Pet Peeve

So i have a few pet peeves that i have been faced with here lately...

1. Please do NOT brag to me about doing drugs/getting drunk/going crazy because all it does is make me want to punch you in the face.

I have always hated when people would laugh when they were telling some stupid story of what they had done while they were high/drunk what have you.. because most of the time they are the only ones laughing and it makes them look like the stupid idiot they are being by bragging about it. I know that i have been drunk and that i have had those times but i have never done drugs nor will i ever do drugs. That is a personal choice and i don't want to do it nor do i want my child exposed to it. (i know he will be sooner or later but it won't be by me.) i have moved on from that stage in my life. i don't want to get drunk i don't think that alcohol is the answer to having a good time. Now don't get me wrong i dont see a problem with a drink every now and then but again im over the whole getting drunk phase. been there done that and nothing good ever came out of it.. Acohol changes people and sometime it's not for the better. I am just sick and tired of people thinking that they are so cool cause they drink and blah blah.. ughhh..

2. People only wanting to be apart of your life when it's convenient or in my case when i will be in town. if you can't make the effort to talk to me while im out of town then there is no way im going to make the effort to see you while im in town....

ok i think that is all for now i feel better just letting this out.. :)

Just Deal With It

Money is the root of all evil.

I hate that the world literally revolves around money. I hate that we dont have any and were trying to make ends meet as it is.. I hate to see my husband, who does so much for me and bubby, stressing about not having enough money to go out and have fun. I hate that he thinks that we have to have money to have fun! I love just spending time at home with him and our baby boy and our little doggies. The perfect weekend is just having him here and us just relaxing... Most divorces are caused by money issues, and i do not want to be in that statistic. I try not to stress out about wondering where we will get the money to pay our bills and buy us food and buy essential things for bubby but it is hard.

Alot of people think that the army is a great job and yada yada but it doesn't pay worth a crap. i mean yea we have health insurance and we have resources on post that are "tax free" but really it's not that much of a difference. For what my husband does day in and day out he should be getting paid alot more then what he does. He is never off duty, he can get called at anytime and have to report. I hate it. I seriously cannot wait til next year when we are out. Now don't get me wrong. I love my hubby and i am super proud of him. He is my hero. Always has been and always will be. He is amazing. i guess all im saying is i wish that life was easier but.. i think everyone wishes that.. oh well i guess i just gotta put my big girl panites on and deal with it..

La da de da!

SO much has happened since the last time i blogged!!

First and foremost i gave birth to my now one month old baby boy!
Brayden Lane was born on my hubby's and my 2 year wedding anniversary! God gave us a beautiful gift this year and every year to come! Brayden is such an amazing baby! I love him more then anything in this world...

Well now down to the nitty gritty..
I feel as if i have lost pretty much all contact with someone very close to me. We used to know everything about each other and now i look at them and it's like i don't know them at all... it is so sad to me to feel as if i have lost them in this crazy world because i used to be able to go to them whenever i felt like but now its just like wow.. i dont know if i can or not because i just feel as if that connection isnt there anymore... now don't get me wrong they are still a very important part of my life and not a day goes by that i dont think and pray for this person its just not the same as it used to be.. and im not blaming them because i know that i haven't been the best person to come to with problems or anything really here lately i'm just sad.. sad that i wasn't the friend that i should have been and sad that it might never be the same way it used to be....i know that if i ever needed them they would be there for me and i for them its just hard to actually admit it and i think that all this time that is all i really needed to do. i need to be honest and try to fix things and not make them worse... i just don't know how to do it..

So for now i pray. I pray that God will help me to be a better friend and be a better person not only for my friends but for my son. I need to teach him that you treat others the way that you would like to be treated i was taught that my whole life growing up but i think somewhere i lost it and i needed to be reminded.. I want to teach my son that everyone is equal in this world and that no matter the situation you should always try to do the right thing and if you don't know what is the right thing then pray. Pray to God for the guidance that will lead you down the right path because with God leading the way you will never be lead wrong. I pray for my son to know that his father and i love him very much and that we will always try to do anything and everything in our power to give him the world and more. I need to teach him all of the things that i have forgotten and have found out the hard way.. I want him to be the best kind of person that he can be. I love him with all of my heart and i always will..shew ok now that i have cried til i can't hardly see to type this i think this is a good place to end for now.. thanks for reading :)

Fact of Life

There comes a time in everyone's life where they drift away form those who are closest. It is just a fact of life. It doesn't mean that you love those people any less or that you won't always be there for those people. It just means that you are all growing in your own ways and not everyone can grow at the same pace. I know for me I started growing up faster as soon as i hit high school age. I fell in love with the man of my dreams my freshman year. He went on to join the military and it went from being a normal teenage girl with a boyfriend to i never get to see him, he is in a completely different state and i didn't care i knew that he was the one for me and that it didn't matter how long it took for us to be back together again i would wait. And wait i did. :) My husband and i got married when i was 17 years old he was 19. He spent our whole first year of marriage in Iraq. He didn't get to see me graduate from high school and we didn't see each other for a total of 11 months straight. I am now 19 and we are expecting our first baby boy. It's amazing how much life can change in a couple of years. Life changes and people change it's just how this world goes. I know that i have some amazing friends that i will have for life because it doesn't matter how long we go with out talking or seeing each other because i know we all dont talk or see each other as much as we once did, but that doesn't we don't care enough about each other it just means we have a life and it's a hectic life that we all live.

I know that i haven't stayed in touch with all of my friends from home, but like i said it doesn't mean that i love them any less or don't think about them daily. I am starting a new chapter in my life where i will have not only myself to worry about but my family too. My husband and my baby boy are my first priorities, and i hope people understand im not trying to be mean when i say things like that. I am simply just stating the change and the fact of my life now. And i know not everyone understands the way i feel because they are in a different stage in their life and hopefully with time they will understand. For now im going to try my best to stay in touch with the people that i love and pray that is enough.