Fact of Life

There comes a time in everyone's life where they drift away form those who are closest. It is just a fact of life. It doesn't mean that you love those people any less or that you won't always be there for those people. It just means that you are all growing in your own ways and not everyone can grow at the same pace. I know for me I started growing up faster as soon as i hit high school age. I fell in love with the man of my dreams my freshman year. He went on to join the military and it went from being a normal teenage girl with a boyfriend to i never get to see him, he is in a completely different state and i didn't care i knew that he was the one for me and that it didn't matter how long it took for us to be back together again i would wait. And wait i did. :) My husband and i got married when i was 17 years old he was 19. He spent our whole first year of marriage in Iraq. He didn't get to see me graduate from high school and we didn't see each other for a total of 11 months straight. I am now 19 and we are expecting our first baby boy. It's amazing how much life can change in a couple of years. Life changes and people change it's just how this world goes. I know that i have some amazing friends that i will have for life because it doesn't matter how long we go with out talking or seeing each other because i know we all dont talk or see each other as much as we once did, but that doesn't we don't care enough about each other it just means we have a life and it's a hectic life that we all live.

I know that i haven't stayed in touch with all of my friends from home, but like i said it doesn't mean that i love them any less or don't think about them daily. I am starting a new chapter in my life where i will have not only myself to worry about but my family too. My husband and my baby boy are my first priorities, and i hope people understand im not trying to be mean when i say things like that. I am simply just stating the change and the fact of my life now. And i know not everyone understands the way i feel because they are in a different stage in their life and hopefully with time they will understand. For now im going to try my best to stay in touch with the people that i love and pray that is enough.

The "C" Word.

Cancer. I hate the word. I hate everything about it. I hate how this one word has destroyed so many lives and families. I hate that it has and is effecting my family. We learned yesterday that my mom has skin cancer. The good news is it's the Basil Cell (sp?) it's supposed to be a good thing if you have it because it's the easiest to get rid of. I don't care it's still cancer. UGH!

My dad had cancer when i was younger, Lymphoma, it was on his jaw. The tumor he had was as big as a lemon and he had to have radiation therapy after they took it out. I remember watching my dad, the strongest, most amazing man go through the radiation and it was horrible. I remember that he had to eat baby food because the radiation had burned the inside of his mouth so much that it hurt to eat anything else. He also lived off of pop-sicles. Cancer did this to him. It wasn't easy on any of us but we got through it as a family and a strong family we are! :) I love my dad he is an amazing man! :)

Now for my mom's cancer it will be different. She will have it burned off and that will be the end of it Thank the Lord. But it will scar and it's in a place that people will be able to see so i think that bothers her the most. :( My mom is an amazing woman, she is my best friend, i know we had our ups and downs through teenage years but i think that just made us closer in a way.. She has always been my number one fan and she has always been there for me in support and encouragement. am a very lucky girl to have been blessed with two parents who gave me everything i ever asked for and then some. I know that i haven't been the perfect daughter and yet they love me anyway. Not alot of people can say that they have two loving parents and i am so glad that i can. So this skin cancer that my mom has cannot bring us down we will fight it as a family and she will be ok! :) Please pray for my family as we go through this time, its not easy but God will get us through it!

Bucket List

So i have been thinking about writing this for a while, a bucket list that is. :) I have so many things that i want to do in my life that i don't know if it will happen but to have some sort of motivation would help me out alot!! SOOO Here Goes!

• Travel to anywhere and every where! There are so many places that i want to see! Grand Canyon, Washington DC, Alaska, Niagara Falls! i mean this world is a huge place why not enjoy what God has blessed us with?! :)
• Have a family! I know that we are already doing this but i know that i want more than one child! So i will just put that! haha
• Go to a Carolina Panthers game!
  
• Go to a Atlanta Braves game!
  
• Spend as much time with family and friends as possible!
  
• Try and be the "bigger person" when it comes to events that happen in my life. No more stupid fights and useless name callings.
  
• Tell the people i love that i love them every chance i get!
• Swim with a Dolphin!
• Go fishing in the sea!
• Try and be the best wife that i can be, every day.
  
• Read my Bible all the way through. this one seems to be the hardest one for me, which makes me really mad at my self cause i LOVE to read so why can't i read the one book that will answer all my questions and lead me through the right path?? i dont have an answer but im going to try my hardest to do this!
• Pray. i pray, but i dont pray near as much as i can or should. I want to be able to pray about everything!
• Figure out what i want to be...like figure out a career for me. hmm this one is going to be hard!! haha

I know this isn't that long but im sure i will be adding things as i can think of them.